Nothing can I do against your betrayal;
They’ll haunt me till death, I’ll have to suffer.
After all, I was the one who made your existence crucial.
Unable to cut my ties with you,
I cut one, you create another…
There are too many people binding us together!
I’m fragile unlike my boundaries,
So you enjoy breaking through them,
Watching me shatter,
Asking me again and again as if nothing happened,
“What’s the matter?”
Crawling in pain, tired of reality,
I deny your existence.
You use those people, in mutual,
To remind me you exist, calculating the consequences.
I too deserve justice.
I too deserve the beauty of silence.
I too deserve sound sleep.
I too deserve to glow softly like a tulip.
You spread lies.
You made the people beside me betray as well.
You keep coming back,
Knowing all I need is a farewell.
All I need is your absence in my life.
All I desire is a dream without you —
Backstabbing me with a sharp knife!
Spare me, I cry.
You blabber — a new way to punish I found,
So, let’s try.
This loop of my sufferings I couldn’t break.
I’ll have to crush your life for that.
Till then my life is at a monster’s stake.
– Mst. Sumaiya
